Dark!
Over the past few months, I have been in a very dark place. I have been suicidal and have lost all interest in living my life. I have a very hard time finding any energy to keep my house clean, sometimes even my own body.

My dreams never come true, the exception was finding my soulmate. I wanted to be married and a Mom more than anything. I found my prince, but being a Mom eluded me, F ive years ago last month I found out that I had stage 4 endometriosis. The only treatment was a complete radical hysterectomy. We then turned to adoption. We were then turned down for adoption because our home is not up to the province's standards, yet they let a teenager take her baby home to either sleep in atrocious conditions or neglect them all together.

There were more things this week but I am too exhausted to keep going. I will write more later!